I am fighting typing up this post, but this is going to be a hard habit to give up. The other day I was talking to someone close to me. He is the biggest doer, kick ass, amazing person I have ever met. He doesn’t talk shit about anything, he just does it. Anyway, my anxiety has been acting up, so I told him that I wasn’t drinking coffee that day. I explained how coffee makes my anxiety worse, and it makes me feel like crap lately.
Later that day I had coffee, and when he called me back I told him. It wasn’t a big deal, but then it kind of was. It was a stupid little promise that I didn’t keep to myself. And then I remembered all of the times through the years that I told him that I needed to quit caffeine and I hadn’t. I thought about it and it made me feel kind of like an idiot that I let a beverage master me in that way.
So, as of about 9am this morning (when I had made the decision), I am done with coffee. I am adding “no caffeine” to my September challenge, and I just need to accept it and do this one once and for all. Lord help me.